cars dont work with 3 weels

oh man, this weeks gonna be intense, ive fond a friend in mark, and loren, i really didnt expect that, but god has his reasons. we got to jam today, sort of, its really hard to jam with people when you dont have a feel for theyre style, you know? then its even worse when you dont have confedence in your playing abilities. i mean i know im good but mark is hella good, i think im in more awe of his writing capabilities than in his playing abliitly though, and he has an amazing voice, all these things cloud my head and i have a problem just playing, i think thats my problem, i could be wrong but it really holds me back, i hate it.

so mark and lacey have a thing for each other and ive imposed my self as the middle man, semi intentionaly. i love watching them grow while not growing at all, i know it makes no sense but im notggona rephrase because to be perfedtly honest i have no clue what im trying to say. i think in a way it makes me sick, but its not really them, its just in general the thought that they have some one they can call there own, and im stuck as just friends with everyone it seems. but thats just because ive had it pent up for a while and its been looming over my head for forever.

but any ways, to all the people who have been put on the back burner because of me, im really really sorry, i know how you feel now, sorry

so ive been listening to a bunch of random music, ive fond owl city, any one else madly in love with them, i sure am, its so chill, its like water on a summers day, it flows and refreshes with out shocking your system, it amazing.

last night i went to a christmas party at oasis, the church i go to, it was a good time, some guys in a band that go to OFC played, they were alright, they were really really small, it was hilarious, but the music was pretty good, i look foward to see their career take off.

and speaking of musical careers i recorded yesterday, it was pretty cool, it went over pretty well, email me if you wanna hear it, and erica got recording stuff, so its goin down, lovingalyssarae is going to record in the very near feautre, be excited, i sure am!

but thats all i got right now, im sure more will come i got the big things out :)

thanks for reading everyone, keep me in your prayers, what ever you pray im sure i need it, thank you so much

~chris lee~