inocence, whered it go?

so its christmas eve, freaking out because santas coming, santas coming! i swear i have never seen him flip out so hard over anything! and it really truely amazes me that im not that enthusiastic about it, even after the magic of santa passed on i still got butterflies over the presents, and a couple years ago, i just stopped getting thebutterflies, i think its amazing that something once so highly regarded has been shifted around. a couple nights ago my mom brought up how i had changed my priorites with the comp from games to music, and comunication a lot these days, but still, how does that change?

and what does it mean when you stop thinking about your self, but everyone else, but not neccecarily what they want but what they need, bu then not that either, what is it called when your family expands into freinds and then you start thinking about them more than your biological family, i think technicalities are stupid, but any who, yeah thats all i got this evening im pretty sure thats makes me sound way outta character and pesimistic, but thats just whats been on my mind as i watched zach run around freaking out that we need to go to bed, which is hilarious because ussually hes so against it :) but im just glad were not arguinglike we do.

well thats all, merry christmas to you guys if i dont post agin for a while, and if i do youll get i again!

i love you all so much

~chris lee~

cars dont work with 3 weels

oh man, this weeks gonna be intense, ive fond a friend in mark, and loren, i really didnt expect that, but god has his reasons. we got to jam today, sort of, its really hard to jam with people when you dont have a feel for theyre style, you know? then its even worse when you dont have confedence in your playing abilities. i mean i know im good but mark is hella good, i think im in more awe of his writing capabilities than in his playing abliitly though, and he has an amazing voice, all these things cloud my head and i have a problem just playing, i think thats my problem, i could be wrong but it really holds me back, i hate it.

so mark and lacey have a thing for each other and ive imposed my self as the middle man, semi intentionaly. i love watching them grow while not growing at all, i know it makes no sense but im notggona rephrase because to be perfedtly honest i have no clue what im trying to say. i think in a way it makes me sick, but its not really them, its just in general the thought that they have some one they can call there own, and im stuck as just friends with everyone it seems. but thats just because ive had it pent up for a while and its been looming over my head for forever.

but any ways, to all the people who have been put on the back burner because of me, im really really sorry, i know how you feel now, sorry

so ive been listening to a bunch of random music, ive fond owl city, any one else madly in love with them, i sure am, its so chill, its like water on a summers day, it flows and refreshes with out shocking your system, it amazing.

last night i went to a christmas party at oasis, the church i go to, it was a good time, some guys in a band that go to OFC played, they were alright, they were really really small, it was hilarious, but the music was pretty good, i look foward to see their career take off.

and speaking of musical careers i recorded yesterday, it was pretty cool, it went over pretty well, email me if you wanna hear it, and erica got recording stuff, so its goin down, lovingalyssarae is going to record in the very near feautre, be excited, i sure am!

but thats all i got right now, im sure more will come i got the big things out :)

thanks for reading everyone, keep me in your prayers, what ever you pray im sure i need it, thank you so much

~chris lee~

20 minutes...

the first time i went to six flags was with the highpoint youth group, one of the best youth groups around, but any ways, it was the first time i rode a roller coaster, and we were getting hyped up, i was growing a pair and joking, and we got to throwing up because thats just one hting involved with rollercoasters. but becca, esia, erica and i established that after you throw up you have to spend 20ish minutes blowing chunks out of your nose, and40 when theres rice involved, i made becca laugh at lunch and rice came out her nose, good times.

but any wasy the moral of the story is i just got done blowing chunks, i was feeling miserable, then i prayed that god would heal me, and boy did he,lol, it felt really great, not the throwing up but the feeling better lol, so yeah

but any ways today was day one of exams, i got a 62 on the french and 100 in digital graphics and animaiton, not sure about chemistry, but im sure i did fine. tomorrows day 2 with algebra and out door ed, we get to eat cobler for the final, sweet action right? then right after that im gonna go jam with laura and lacey and possibly ely,i keep butchering his name, sorry buddy, but yeah, thats my line up for tomorrow :)

hope alls well in your lives, love you all

~chris~

words of wisdom

so its icy up here in rockwall texas today, so i get to stay home and chill all day!

so in my vast chill time, ive been doing some thinking, about music girls, guys, life, love, and everything else. i swear, every time i sit down to think, i find somehting profound to say, it may not belife changing at the moment but down the line who knows, right?

so on the note of music, lynn had proposed starting a band, this was like 2 months ago? but anyways he got me thinking about band names and what not which got me on to poetry and some other stuff, but the other night i was thinking of a cool way to open a show, and i was like it would be epic, insane even, if you started with an instrumental song, while some one just spoke over it
this was what i was thinking...

"under the wings of his safety, in the shadow of his protection... we walk as giants"

would that not be insane? im gonna finish it up later, but for now, thats the only line i got.

and then on guys, well were just stupid.

then girls, they think a lot of us,as in guys, its kinda nice but at the same time, were always watching ourselves so we dont trip up and let everything weve worked so hard crash so the ground, but it makes life interesting to say the least. but i got to talk to a girl today, never met her in my life, she just kinda went off, and told me about her boyfriend, which i have the same name as, and sometimes we dont try hard enough to hold on to what we've worked for, and just cant fess up to it, causing hurt to us and everyone around us, but what eves, thats not why i brought it up, i thought it was hilarious that she was like" its just like talking to him, you have his name and everything" then the age thing came up, good stuff.

im really random, ive been sitting here, and my minds been everywhere, that^ paragraph just shows it, in my eyes any who.

and also, alyssa rae now has blogger! now we both can vent our inner most feelings to the world wide web, just kidding sort of :)

My Heart

so , here i am, staring at an aproaching curve, and the feeling of excitment is steatling in my gut and the antisipation is driving me crazy, will the roller coaster of my life fall in a rush of speed and exciting newness, or with the excitment continue to mount? well im waiting, excited for either way because its gonna be friggin sweet either way.

i have this feeling of contentment recently, ive come to terms with being single, sort of, its strange not gonna lie, dont know what to do with myself :) but slowly im figuring it out, the band is official, we have a name, A Walk On Main Street, right now its just Laura me and Lacey, its gonna be epic, ive already started writing lyrics and laura and i wrote some music last night, so yeah, thats that.

and last night i read Van's blog, it scared me. i for got that shes leaving for the mission feild soon :( then i was thinking about a conversation we had, we dont talk much but when we do it sticks, its crazy, but it was when we were leaving, her to AIM me to Rockwall, but she was like im sorry im stealing the focus, because your leaving too, and i was like its cool, your off to greater things, and i was of the mind set that i wasnt, but last night i was like, wow, im really missing out on something when i think like that because look where im at now :) but i really miss Van she makes me laugh.

but in a couple of weeks im going down to austin!! can i get a woot woot? thats right, but yeah, im going down hopefully on the 26th, its gonna be epic, erica and i are gonna get to jam im gonna get to see the college kids again, its gonna be sweet, and then ill get to give charlie a black eye hug like i do :) i still dont know where im gonna stay sarahs opened up her couch and ericas done the same and dillon and rab, so i have some desission making to do and if worse come to worse i can probably stay with mike and jm. so ill be praying about it, a lot :)

so yeah, i htink thats the bulk of everything at the moment, if you guys, who ever decides to read this :) ever need anything emial me allot_panic@yahoo.com

a weekend packed full of everything

so this weekend i was supposed to go on the winter advance with highpoint, but in my mohters infanit wisdom, im at home. i was pretty upset but its all good, im slowly getting alife, its great. im gonna go jam with laura and lacey and hopefully eli tomorrow, its gonna be a good time, im excited, you should be too, were gonna make magic happen!

but yeah, earlier this week lacey and i went out for coffee and studied french, its was a good time, its amazing the things you learn about people, crazy crazy. and out of the blue haley and katey showed up at chruch, which was pretty great, i havent seen them in forever and a day! this was the highlight of my week more or less because i didnt really do much of anything else with anyone, ive had a really huge home life, cant wait to drive.

but tomorrow, haley wanted to go out for coffee, coffees really good i like it cause im weird, really really weird. not. but oh well, so ill hopefully be able to get out for an entire after noon wih a bunch of people, i really want out lol.

but yeah, this is more or less all i feel like typing so yeah, hope everythings going alright with everything if you need anything email me