And death did us part.

Weve dug ourselves a shallow grave, now lie down, lie down
or get up it not to late.
There cries a voice, echoing loud, GET OUT GET OUT!
Your hearts still beating theres still time left
GET OUTGETOUT
its getting louder now

And we said wed never leave, never let go
lets not start now
Times not on out side, think fast, think fast

The wind is blowing, howling now, a final breath a final call
This isnt your time i hear, Get out GET OUT!
quickly now, pick up the pieces, Pick up your life GET OUT GET OUT!

There is so much more, to what we have, we are nothing with out you!
you call our name, you scream it loud let us come running, come running!
You are, the answer, the calling of our hearts.

GET OUT! GET OUT!
and come home.

Speech.

so i sit here in speech, and talk to laura, she sighs " I hope hes not mad at me" in reference to Josh saying somehting about her hanging out with a guy thats started a whole mess of drama... its rediculous! i mean really? its not really out place to say who should hang out with who regardless of circumstances or what was said, the drama that was started has nothing to do with us! boldy hell! i mean yes what was said was hurtful, but if we go off shunning every person who said something hurtful to us or some one close to us would leave us friendless. an eye for an eye leaves the world blind i think could apply here i suppose. but still retarded, thats just my veiw, its no big deal.

but man recently life is freaking sweet! i finally found a youth group thats awesome and cool, and i get along :) im stoked for summer, so bad, i was day dreaming about laying in a feild, with my eyes closed, and the summer heat laying heavy on my body, and a carefree out look on life over taking my mind, it was magical then i came back to math and that day dream was shot out of the sky like a dove during hunting season. i feel like a red neck now... this towns gettin got me!

and lyrics are coming like crazy, well crazy fragments, but im leaving now, so ill post some later,

hope lifes well,

chris leef

so jamie...

YOU ARE FREAKING AMAZING CHICK!

i hope you find my life as entertaining as i do, it keeps me occupied to say the least :) im going to start bloggin more just for yuo just thought yuo hsould know, and... yeah thats all ive got right now :)

have a great week :)

Mood Swings.

Usually when i hear the term mood swing, i think bipolar, or some ones on their period, or in extreme cases both. but as far as i can tell im not hormonal or bipolar.

i just lack direction.

but i got direction, well, sort of, i got turned around from where i was going, it wasnt a nice place not going to lie. but now ive got a general direction of, 'lets not go there' and now i just need to find a good place to start heading. so last night i was in the down swing lol, but im on the up swing so just keep me in your prayers that my directino is found :)

so now that thats out in the open. i havnt writen anything up here other than complaining cryptinc messages! so update with life!

so recently ive been going to a new youth group, the youth group at lakeshore, its a really cool place, feels like highpoint, i like it, a lot! i feel really accepted there, its a cool feeling but i mean i can see more places for God to use me, and i think im suppose d to be there to be perfectly honest. i got invited to play on the worship team but i need to pray somemore and then keep on praying.

umm, yeah thats the biggest thing right now, schools almost done! therefore mass amounts of stress for all as we try and keep our heads above water while making minimum effort, its interesting to see people freak out like they do and then just be like, whoa... cheeel home fry!, so yeah, cant wait to be done!

hopfully, im gonna be recording with ethan and getting what ever songs ive got done by then recorded all sexy like and erica and i ma begin playing coffee shops in austin and dallas! ive been introduced to a coffee shop thats got somehting of an acousticy scene going for it! im pretty stoked to go check it out and listen to so music and drink coffee with friends! i love friends, so so very much.

but i think thats about all for the moment. i have to go work at the church in the morning so i should hit the hay.

PS, something for thought... You can never love what you lust after.

Falling

Its an interesting feeling, nerve racking and thrilling, and petrefying. I hate the dreams where you wake up and your falling. i hate it even worse when you wake up and your still falling, not physicly but mentally. every things in a spinning crazy something or other. its interesting, like i said before. i sit here in jannas tv room, lost and confused about so many things it hurts. it hurts to see so many things falling around me, relationships falling into place, faces dropping in and out of life, friends as the come and go. and all of this is just like falling for me. its a rush and a jolt of fear, and i have no idea where ill land, i havent gotten close enough to the end of the ride to let you know that much, but i think soon will be that time, hard to say.