oh geez this break was insane, amazing but insane!
sarah came up it was pretty sweet, we took lots of pictures it was a good time, we had crazy conversations, learned a lot it was a great growing experience, shes matured a lot, i feel so immature, but i generaly am sometimes, i know hard to belive but i am.
yeah, on top of all this i wrote a lot, ive had a lot on my mind so it just work out well, ive got things going down still musicly, erica and i are hitting things pretty hard with the music, its sweet be looking forward to amazingness in the near feautre, were hoping to have a couple songs by winter break, pray for us!
speaking of prayer, Shelby Forward and i started a prayer myspace, i just kinda jumpped on the band wagon but i still think its awsome, our goal is to out reach to our generation, i mean who doesnt have a myspace these days? if you dont more power to you, but i just wanna let you know that were here for you guys, check us out add us, www.myspace.com/prayerplease .
so tomorrows, monday, oh dreaded monday, im not to thrilled aobut it, but ill get over it once im there and hopefully ill be abl eto go to the winter advance, exciting much, again pray about it, i really need to see the youth group, i miss them lots.
but yeah i think thats all for now , let me know how you guys are, if you need anything email me
allot_panic@yahoo.com
much love
~chris~
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Sunday, November 23, 2008
well ive disocverd some words
so recently, ive been just kinda floating by in life. ive been feeling identityless its been weird, it hasnt really clicked that im no longer comitted, or maybe its clicked so hard that i relize it with such blinding vividness that im incompastitated. ive felt like im at a stand still, and generally its when i literally am, im just sitting and i get the feeling that i could be a thousand other places, but im not, it feels like i would have more of a life if i never moved, thats just the vibe ive been acrrying around with me, im not sure if its that noticible, no ones called me on it, so i think its all good.
but i think this weekend is just kinda be blah, i was supposed to jam with laura yeterday but jeremy and sarah came which was cool, but i didnt get to jam like i said, which sucked becasue they said they were getting here 2 hours latter than they did, but it was all good be cause we hadnt seen them since they moved like 2 months before we did, it was a good time
but ive been really un grateful, ironic because its the week of thanksgiving, which i find hilarious, but thats just because im in a chipper mood at the moment, ive got jesus music freinds family, the basics for a great life. but i was a the guys cell group and it was the first time id gotten out all weekend to han gout with some friends, but i was just like whats my deal? honestly ive been such a dweeb recently i cant really put my finger on it any more, but god was just like hey, take a step back, breath and look at your life, turns out i got it pretty good, ive got supportive freinds, ive got a family whos loves me, ive got god on my side, ive got music and a nice smile, what can go wrong? and a ccording to lynn, im a good looking guy , so im just waiting, and growing and loving life as of right now thats my situation
how are you guys? email me allot_panic@yahoo.com
untill then take care! love you all
but i think this weekend is just kinda be blah, i was supposed to jam with laura yeterday but jeremy and sarah came which was cool, but i didnt get to jam like i said, which sucked becasue they said they were getting here 2 hours latter than they did, but it was all good be cause we hadnt seen them since they moved like 2 months before we did, it was a good time
but ive been really un grateful, ironic because its the week of thanksgiving, which i find hilarious, but thats just because im in a chipper mood at the moment, ive got jesus music freinds family, the basics for a great life. but i was a the guys cell group and it was the first time id gotten out all weekend to han gout with some friends, but i was just like whats my deal? honestly ive been such a dweeb recently i cant really put my finger on it any more, but god was just like hey, take a step back, breath and look at your life, turns out i got it pretty good, ive got supportive freinds, ive got a family whos loves me, ive got god on my side, ive got music and a nice smile, what can go wrong? and a ccording to lynn, im a good looking guy , so im just waiting, and growing and loving life as of right now thats my situation
how are you guys? email me allot_panic@yahoo.com
untill then take care! love you all
Friday, November 21, 2008
ahh, what a relife
once again its the weekend, greatness! this weekends gonna be pretty great hopefully, planing on jamming with laura and lacey and eli on drums, were gonna start a band, i dont think eli and laura know it, but we are, ive been playing with the name "a walk on main street" or "a walk on 32nd" i think those would be pretty coolbut who knows right?
but i htink im coming down with a cold, it sucks, im all snuffly and what not, and my eyes are all puffy feeling and i just feel strait up sucky, i hate being sick, i feel like crap therefore life sucks because its hard to make other people smile and be merry while you feel terrible, but i work through it.
so this week ive been working on reaching out to people, just over all being freindly kinda things its been interesting, i always seem to get into the situation that i say hi and they just keep coming back and always trying to return the gesture of kindness 10times over, its crazy, i dont know how to react to that stuff, if that says anything about me, not really but hey.
but this weeks been intense, ive been growing, moving seeing things hearing thingsits been intense, i love it. un fourtunatly most of the things ive been hearing were curss words, that kinda sucked but what ever, one day ill have words to say against it.
and ive been doing a lot of reading, i finally started Wild at Heart, its pretty good so far, guys want to chase girl grils wanna be chased, pretty much the biggest thing ive gotten so far good to know right?
other than that and my cold that i told you aobut life is just peechy keen.
but i htink im coming down with a cold, it sucks, im all snuffly and what not, and my eyes are all puffy feeling and i just feel strait up sucky, i hate being sick, i feel like crap therefore life sucks because its hard to make other people smile and be merry while you feel terrible, but i work through it.
so this week ive been working on reaching out to people, just over all being freindly kinda things its been interesting, i always seem to get into the situation that i say hi and they just keep coming back and always trying to return the gesture of kindness 10times over, its crazy, i dont know how to react to that stuff, if that says anything about me, not really but hey.
but this weeks been intense, ive been growing, moving seeing things hearing thingsits been intense, i love it. un fourtunatly most of the things ive been hearing were curss words, that kinda sucked but what ever, one day ill have words to say against it.
and ive been doing a lot of reading, i finally started Wild at Heart, its pretty good so far, guys want to chase girl grils wanna be chased, pretty much the biggest thing ive gotten so far good to know right?
other than that and my cold that i told you aobut life is just peechy keen.
Monday, November 17, 2008
only twice
last night was rough, i broke up with sarah, 8 months for those of you who didnt know. it was huge and insane and were both alive and friggin peachy, its awsome! the reason we broke up was because god convicted me of bing in the relationshsip for the wrong reasons and that it was hurtting us both, and i listened, and its all good.
but this weeks gonna be intense, ive got a lot going on, church tomorrow, playing bass wednesday, hopefully gonna jam with lynn thursday, who knows about the rest lol, but its gonna happen! and hope fully ill get to jam with laura and lacey again, that was amazing last weekend, not gonna lie.
but yeah this is life for me at the moment, lots of love to you guys!
~chris~
but this weeks gonna be intense, ive got a lot going on, church tomorrow, playing bass wednesday, hopefully gonna jam with lynn thursday, who knows about the rest lol, but its gonna happen! and hope fully ill get to jam with laura and lacey again, that was amazing last weekend, not gonna lie.
but yeah this is life for me at the moment, lots of love to you guys!
~chris~
Friday, November 14, 2008
Girls.Music.Jesus.wow.
oh man its been a long 2 weeks, lifes been pretty chill, been grounded but thats alright the biggest thing with that is no communication with sarah, but shes coming down in a coupl eof weeks, exciting much! you can teven comprehend it man. im so strange but oh well such is life.
im still picking a church, i think im leaning towards oasis, i like their youth group, and i like listening to them jam, and lynn wants me to play bass possibly for a band hes strarting up with his brother lauren, im doomed to be a bass player, nothing wrong with bass other than the fact that im a guitar player, but oh well, its all good, i think ill talk him into a 2 guitar band, i think it would be more fun and dynamic that say any who. and thinking about bands, ive got my side project Lovingalyssarae goin down, its goin the direction of poppy acousticy greatness, its gonna be great, im getting down words and ideas, they seem to be revolving around small towns and girls, both relitivly huge things in my life, and then on the side im kinda writing some worship stuff, i bust out and sing to god sometimes at night when i dont feel like playing other peoples forms of worship i make my own its great.
and im finding god in some interesting ways these days, any one know what speaking in tounges is, straight up phenominal, thats what it is, an even more direct link to talk to god, like the spiritual cell phone, its crazy!
and my musical preference is ever widening, i cant fill the void, i listen to one thing and it leads to another and i just cant stop, ive been listening to hellogoodbyes EP which is greatness you cant buy, and if you could you still couldnt it would be so friggin expensive! but on top of that ive been listening to nevershoutnever, message for the messenger, the sons of korah, words like riots, and underoath, theyre all really inspiring me musicly and lyricly, its really amazing the way that my music is developing, i hope that god wants me to keep persuing it, i mean he put the pasion for music on my heart before i knew it was his doing, i dont know which way he wants me to go with it, thats an other thing ive been writing about, a lack of knowing what to do with myself.
ive been noticing all my friends are girls, not sure if thats a good or bad thing...
so i have decided that in addition to begin a rock star/pruducer i want to be a tattoo artist, the art is friggin epic! i love it, and i wanna know what i takes to do it anyone know?
but thats all for know, love you bye
im still picking a church, i think im leaning towards oasis, i like their youth group, and i like listening to them jam, and lynn wants me to play bass possibly for a band hes strarting up with his brother lauren, im doomed to be a bass player, nothing wrong with bass other than the fact that im a guitar player, but oh well, its all good, i think ill talk him into a 2 guitar band, i think it would be more fun and dynamic that say any who. and thinking about bands, ive got my side project Lovingalyssarae goin down, its goin the direction of poppy acousticy greatness, its gonna be great, im getting down words and ideas, they seem to be revolving around small towns and girls, both relitivly huge things in my life, and then on the side im kinda writing some worship stuff, i bust out and sing to god sometimes at night when i dont feel like playing other peoples forms of worship i make my own its great.
and im finding god in some interesting ways these days, any one know what speaking in tounges is, straight up phenominal, thats what it is, an even more direct link to talk to god, like the spiritual cell phone, its crazy!
and my musical preference is ever widening, i cant fill the void, i listen to one thing and it leads to another and i just cant stop, ive been listening to hellogoodbyes EP which is greatness you cant buy, and if you could you still couldnt it would be so friggin expensive! but on top of that ive been listening to nevershoutnever, message for the messenger, the sons of korah, words like riots, and underoath, theyre all really inspiring me musicly and lyricly, its really amazing the way that my music is developing, i hope that god wants me to keep persuing it, i mean he put the pasion for music on my heart before i knew it was his doing, i dont know which way he wants me to go with it, thats an other thing ive been writing about, a lack of knowing what to do with myself.
ive been noticing all my friends are girls, not sure if thats a good or bad thing...
so i have decided that in addition to begin a rock star/pruducer i want to be a tattoo artist, the art is friggin epic! i love it, and i wanna know what i takes to do it anyone know?
but thats all for know, love you bye
Sunday, November 2, 2008
so i was thinking
so im sitting in my room just chillin, being all nostalgic and what not, i was thinking about the mission trip to colorado, and out of the blue i remember sitting at the park where we were just hangin out eating ice cream and what not, and van reaches over my shoulder to grad some thing and i kissed her arm, it was friggin hilarious, because im pretty sure that was the srangest reflex ive ever had for anything ever, then i thought of the after math of that, i told sarah and we argued about it alittle bit and then she starts walking away and i was like "VAN!" and then she was like "excuess me?" and i was pretty much screwed but we figgured it out and it was all fine and dandy.
but i just thought it was so strange that i was thinking about that, it made me smile im still smiling about it. but i just find it amazing how the memories that i htink are gonna be scaring really arent, and they make good memories to laugh at which is always good, because some times life gets just so heavy and you forget what it feels like to genuinly feel happy and know what joy is. i just love those thoguhts! i think im having one of those days where im just thinking about one person, today is van, i havent talked to her in like 2 months.
but now that i think about it, i feel like im missing out on so much at home, austin home, dallas is just a pit stop in life at least thats the way i feel it is, i have yet to find god purpose i think im coming close, and my moms been nagging me to stop trying to get back to austin, and im just like really? i go once a month and i ask just so you cant freak out on me and say i didnt ask. but i really miss everyone, and im really scared that the college kids are gonna be so different, and im gonna be so different when i go home, its just nerve racking adn on top of it all i feel like ive been pretty big jerk to sarah recently, i don know why but i just feel like i have, she says i havent but i dont know, i have to many girl friends, i make my life difficult its terrible.
yeah, also, grades are sucking also, i failed algebra 2 so for the next couple of weeks im not gonna have a life, its gonna suck i was gonna go to the maylene show with lyndsay next friday, but i cant anymore, so im gonna have alot of time to just dwell on what ever i feel like, and do home work, its gonna be strange, on the bright side, im gonna have even more time than ussual to play guitar and write, which will be good, hopefully ill get to jam with lyndsay at least, that would be fun, and ineed new tubes for my amp, i think i blew it up unfortunatly, but it happens.
but yeah, much love
~chris lee~
but i just thought it was so strange that i was thinking about that, it made me smile im still smiling about it. but i just find it amazing how the memories that i htink are gonna be scaring really arent, and they make good memories to laugh at which is always good, because some times life gets just so heavy and you forget what it feels like to genuinly feel happy and know what joy is. i just love those thoguhts! i think im having one of those days where im just thinking about one person, today is van, i havent talked to her in like 2 months.
but now that i think about it, i feel like im missing out on so much at home, austin home, dallas is just a pit stop in life at least thats the way i feel it is, i have yet to find god purpose i think im coming close, and my moms been nagging me to stop trying to get back to austin, and im just like really? i go once a month and i ask just so you cant freak out on me and say i didnt ask. but i really miss everyone, and im really scared that the college kids are gonna be so different, and im gonna be so different when i go home, its just nerve racking adn on top of it all i feel like ive been pretty big jerk to sarah recently, i don know why but i just feel like i have, she says i havent but i dont know, i have to many girl friends, i make my life difficult its terrible.
yeah, also, grades are sucking also, i failed algebra 2 so for the next couple of weeks im not gonna have a life, its gonna suck i was gonna go to the maylene show with lyndsay next friday, but i cant anymore, so im gonna have alot of time to just dwell on what ever i feel like, and do home work, its gonna be strange, on the bright side, im gonna have even more time than ussual to play guitar and write, which will be good, hopefully ill get to jam with lyndsay at least, that would be fun, and ineed new tubes for my amp, i think i blew it up unfortunatly, but it happens.
but yeah, much love
~chris lee~
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