ROAR!

i feel like hell got bottled up in a jar and cant get out! its miserable! i hate being so patient i hate leaving things behind, i hate looking forward to a feautre thats so vast and over whelming! my mind is such a jumbled mess, so im taking the advice i gave to janna and im writing it down.

in no particular order...girls, music, god, words, school.

Girls. why must you be so confused? and why be on such a different level. and why am i so awkward? and why dont you take me seriously? i mean really? please anyone let me know!

music. ive been listening to really grr music today, i think its part of the cause for my foul mood, which sucks because i like the music but i hate the mood.

god. i can feel a huge gap in the way of him and i, all the crap that ive been putting forward in my life is starting to over come my thoughts and i cant see through my own mess. ive been wanting to smoke i think thats one of the biggest issues ive been dealing with, one of the biggest barriers ive set up for myself. i could blame a whole bunch of things for that right now, but ill take the blame and say im the cause for surrounding myself with people who do stuff like that. i need better friends, thanks to jannad lacey pate and everyone who doesnt smoke.

words. today i was in a caustic mood, i had this under laying im pissed off thing going on today and i was cutting people deep, on purpose just because i could, which is never a valid reason to do anything especially to hurt people, it was just one of those days it would have been wiser to just not talk the whole day, so i appologize to all those involed.

school. last but not least, its become so blah and crappy and full of sin that i feel unclean walking out of there at the end of the day, i need a break, woot woot for spring break! and summers only a few months away! so my break, my rest will come soon. and hope fully i can go on mission trip with hpy, im praying for all of this stuff to get lifted off my chest so please can you help with that stuff?

i love you guys dearly hope to hear from you soon, facebook email, however

~chris lee~