RAGH@!

oh man, i hate when im tired. so much, i cant think straight and in one way or another i end up hurting some one some how, never fails. i hate when i think that the world that i live in is crashing down around me when im jsut a mess. i hate when i think everyone else has no say in anything. i hate it so much when i am just so hellbent on being right i go out of my way to make a fool of my stupid self. i hate when i get into other peoples buissiness when i have no room to talk because i have no say in anything.

this is pretty sad i think.

love chris lee

Oddly at peace.

hello loves, how is every one? as you can tell by the title, im oddly at peace.

its quite nice acctually, recently ive had a gnawing feeling in my gut when ever i would think about sarah, so i talked to her about it, we both agreed that it is hard, which was nice, that i wasnt the only one feeling that way. i think that was the biggest source of my fears, or feelings i think is a better word, but ever since then ive been really chill about it. and i also have decided that im supposed to step out of the dating scene for a while, ive decided this with god, and i think thats been a nice relife that jesus is behind me, and im working on my relationship with him so when the time comes i can have him in what ever relationships come my way, im excited, and relived.

so ive been writing like a mad man, its been really really cool sounding to im really proud of myself, because ive come a long way :) heres one of the songs im almost finished( i called it finished mu then i decided it was to short.)

I'd walk to the end of the world and jump right off that cliff for you.
id walk a thousand miles just to see you one more time before i go away.

chorus
and i know weve been through so much i cant say
that ill ever be the same, not after you
but these feelings might never change
even after we go our seperate ways

i think about you everynight while im dreaming
and every word you spoke to me, they echo so freely in my mind

chorus

thats one. then shortly after that one i started thinking about the feautre and i think im gonna have a girl baby, i know thats kinda weird, but i think i am ill let you know when it happens lol. but any who i wrote this song while i was thinking about it

when you wake in the night with a tear in your eye, ill be right there to wipe away your fears
o littl eone ave no fear

the sons on the horizon, just keep your eyes shut ill be here till the new light comes

oh little one have no fear ill still be here after all these years

i know it doesnt seem like much but it is lol

well, i suppose thats all ive got for now iludjew guys a lot, hope everythings goin alright in your life, lemme about it

chrislee

Something about girls and the Ocean

theres something of the call of the ocean, and the call of a girl
the crashing of waves, the sound of her laugh,
i just cant get it out.

theres nothing like smell of the salt air and the smell of her hair
the way it lingers, the way it tastes
where did it go?

they fell out from under me, swallowed me alive
no chance for swimming, no chance for good byes
they left me breathless.


yeah that was a poem i just wrote, called something about girls and the ocean, i was thinking it would be cool for a song but this came out instead, i think this is the start of something but who knows.

so im home now, at my home away from home;) it was a good time, and i might be going back soon, hope so, it'll be a ball.

but thats all im alive and relitivly well, umm im tired so im gonna sleep, i love you all dearly

austin

so since my last post which was christmas eve i belive, i had chirstmas which was cool, i got to chill with the family watch horton hears a who a thousand and one times, not really i think i only watched it once through the whole way, but what ever. but then i bought myself a christmas present... oh yeah i came to austin, merry christmas to all involved :)

yeah so ive been in austin for the last week and ahalf or so, its ben pretty awsome, ive gotten to see all the college kids who came home, vanessa kay, and erica and i almost got lovingalyssarae off the ground but she had no motivation, so next time after weve had some time to start writing more it'll go, but for now we are still seperate entities,which is cool because were still both developing musicly.

and i got to chill with message for the messenger, after like 3 or 4 trys lol. i got to hear theyre new material its gonna be awsome, be looking foward to it its gonna be epic, but yeah it was a good time, theyre an awsome bunch.

and ive been sleeping on sarahs couch its been pretty sweet, ive slept on ericas couch and at dillons its been a good week. and im not gonna lie i miss my family just a little bit, and i miss my new freinds too just a little but i think that its been a good break form both, now i just have to get back in the swing of things when i get there lol

but thats about all

i love you all very much

chris lee