well there went the voice of reason...

i open with a sigh. a sigh of exasperation and slightly hopeless. but not really. just recently the life i know had been changing like crazy and my none moved self is stuck in the whirlwind its become. and im finding as i look back on these blogs that im petrified at that fact. its kinda sucky :( thats really all that can be said about it really, its sucky. but i know everything just seems huge in my head, well at least jumbo sized in my head, its big but not as big as i make it out to be,mostly because i have no say in the way its changing.

and ive also found a change in plans seems to be inorder... or is atleast in the process of being in order. im gonna leave you hanging on that note for a while and let you know once something more final comes to pass, im not sure that it will but if it does ill post it right away. and if you really wanna know let me know and ask nicely and ill get you in on the situation.

Cameras

so i just finished watching a nooma film, one of rob bells videos where he puts life a christ together, but it just got me in to a kind of deep thinking mood and i havent had anyone to talk deep philisophical stuff recently, but as it ended, and he turned to walk away, it looked like it switched cameras, and i was like, no camera will EVER get that exact same footage, no camera will see it like it was originally intended to be seen. then i was like...whoa, this is life, we will never get to change things, the curcumstances will never change, we will always have a past, but no one will ever see it like we do. some may see it as idiotic, some may say that we were immature and unprepared, and i might even agree at some point, but i will be the only one who can acctually know the whole thing, every detail, every snotty shirt, every laugh in the kitchen, ever serious look ive gotten or given. i think that we should make the best of ourselves and make some thing worth remembering