nothing.

more and more i find myself in need. well more so in want. want the vacant spaces in life to be filled, for my life to over flow in abundence. and at the same time i see all of my attempts fall short because i am nothing with out God. like literally nothing, everything that i add up to becomes 0 when you take Jesus out of the equation.

the last couple nights have been really eye opening with this to me. janna just came home from YFN and New Mexico and we were talking and she has this new energy and its amazing! shes more solid than when she left which is amazing! but she brought it up the first time "in Christ we can do all things " and i was like yeah, then later i was like... whoa, if we can do all things with him... we cant do anything with out him. so thats been really heavy on my heart and with the school year starting up soon im scared that im just gonna be pulled under, so ive been reading the word and praying for focus in my life so im where i need ot be at the end of summer.

but thats about it for now, i love you guys

chrislee

and then there was a blur

oh man, the year is coming to a close swiftly it seems and i look back and i cant remember the begining, but thats a lie, i remember it more vividly now then i did then. some things i see more brightly and somethings i see only when i want to. but i hope i never forget it, it was such a good time. its really interesting to see how ive changed, because im a stupid teenager and said i wouldnt change when i moved, that was me lying to myself, but still, its interesting to see how ive grown, and the people that ive been surrounded with have changed with me/because of me. its insane that ive know the people here for only a school year, 8-9 months maybe?, but it feels like ive know then for forever, then when i go home to austin its like i never left, i love life
but i feel weird, like im trying to write a speech or something, im not even in speech class right now ,im in digital graphics and animation, but it really is cool to see the begining and the end of a new chapter of life.

so moving on...

lasterweekend was memorial day weekend, it was a good break pregame summer pretty much, it was great! i got to chill with so many people and the familia it was cool, i dont see much of them its a good balance ive got goin for myself, i see them and my friends all at the same time if that makes sense? no not really, but i havent really had to break my weeks up in to schedual people in they just kinda come and go and i see my family when im not with them which is good because it leaves room for convorsations other than how was your day, i mean thats a prominant convoto have, its an open door.

but its what ever, i cant wait for austin again! its coming soon! not soon enough though! the first week ill be there i'll be with erica and her extended family, whitch will be fun, nothing like ahouse full of crazy people! WOO! then around the 12 ill probably switch houses, probably jamies, not sure though, maybe joeys, who knows, if you have a house with a floor or couch i can crash on lemme know and we'll work it out, dig? cool :)

OH! and ive finally got my music rollin! http://www.myspace.com/irkristophmusic its the first song of like 3 ive finished and recorded! but im thinking that im gonna take my acoustic stuff ^ to austin and play and maybe get janna on her new mandolin in on it :) but its really fun i hope you like it , its kind of rough but its alright, i like the lyrics, lemme know what you think and add me if your feelin it.

but i think that im gonna stop typing for now its been nice to just chillax with the blog for an hour or so, but tis time to move along once again!

but i love you all dearly, if you guys need anything just email me, or comment me or what ever suits you better

allot_panic@Yahoo.com

chris lee

I'd tell you to trust me...but id be lying

i think im gonna use that as lyrics soon, idk, i dont mean it like im not trust worthy i just think that if you have to be told to trust some one or somehting its kinda taking the purpose out of it, you dig? im flattered and utterly himbled if you trust me and i take it to heart and love you for it :)

so ive determined im an ultra nerd.
i have a facebook. a twitter. an email account. and a messenger. i think i have loneliness issues. maybe a little. if you wanna help add to/ sure my addiction add me, allot_panic@yahoo.com is the email for all of those, and i have yahoo messenger.

but anyway now that you all know how to contact me, to can let me know how you are doing and let me know whats up in your life since you already know whats up in mine through this

so im managing another blog on my blogger, a walk on mainstreet, yeah its my bands blog thats no officially rolling! we have a drummer, mr JOSH FEILDS! kids amazing! and ms LAURA MICHAELS, on the keys and vocals , also freaking amazing!
but weve been writing and jamming alot, weve got another practice set up tomorrow so we can finish another song or 2, laura and i have been lyric writing like beasts recently now that weve acctually got an oppourtunity to have something more than ourselves.

but this week is slightly pressured because im gone this weekend. where to one may ask? AUSTIN TEXAS! yeah buddy! im getting dressed up all sexy like in a tux and gonna go to prom with the super gorgious ERICA HIDALGO! its gonna be amazing. i love moments to make a fool of myself, and possibly everyone else in my presence :) congrats e :P

and on top of all this amazingness and exciting anticipation school is SOOO close to being done it hurts! like litterally, my heart shrinks and my stomache gets all twisted and the rest of my body's a mess when i think about it! then on top of it being so close to being done, ive got graduation to worry about and im not even graduating! just everyone else i know.... jerks. not really i love them all dearly, the ones i havent seen in forever, and the friends ove just met here in rockwall, all great people and im excited for them , and the rockwall friends are going to be austin friends soon! more places to sleep when i visit ;)

well thats whats up now IM me, email me facebook me, what eva i wanna know whats up with all of you!

much love from me to you

Chris Lee

faded images

your pictures are fading out
what was once bright and beautiful
is fading into grey

it seems you've got your life figured out... for now.

So i suppose ill be walking away
cant say i wont be back again
and i cant say i wont be waiting

take it all in
leave it where it stands
faded images of a life so grand

i need a chorus still, that last part i think is a brigde... help?

And death did us part.

Weve dug ourselves a shallow grave, now lie down, lie down
or get up it not to late.
There cries a voice, echoing loud, GET OUT GET OUT!
Your hearts still beating theres still time left
GET OUTGETOUT
its getting louder now

And we said wed never leave, never let go
lets not start now
Times not on out side, think fast, think fast

The wind is blowing, howling now, a final breath a final call
This isnt your time i hear, Get out GET OUT!
quickly now, pick up the pieces, Pick up your life GET OUT GET OUT!

There is so much more, to what we have, we are nothing with out you!
you call our name, you scream it loud let us come running, come running!
You are, the answer, the calling of our hearts.

GET OUT! GET OUT!
and come home.

Speech.

so i sit here in speech, and talk to laura, she sighs " I hope hes not mad at me" in reference to Josh saying somehting about her hanging out with a guy thats started a whole mess of drama... its rediculous! i mean really? its not really out place to say who should hang out with who regardless of circumstances or what was said, the drama that was started has nothing to do with us! boldy hell! i mean yes what was said was hurtful, but if we go off shunning every person who said something hurtful to us or some one close to us would leave us friendless. an eye for an eye leaves the world blind i think could apply here i suppose. but still retarded, thats just my veiw, its no big deal.

but man recently life is freaking sweet! i finally found a youth group thats awesome and cool, and i get along :) im stoked for summer, so bad, i was day dreaming about laying in a feild, with my eyes closed, and the summer heat laying heavy on my body, and a carefree out look on life over taking my mind, it was magical then i came back to math and that day dream was shot out of the sky like a dove during hunting season. i feel like a red neck now... this towns gettin got me!

and lyrics are coming like crazy, well crazy fragments, but im leaving now, so ill post some later,

hope lifes well,

chris leef

so jamie...

YOU ARE FREAKING AMAZING CHICK!

i hope you find my life as entertaining as i do, it keeps me occupied to say the least :) im going to start bloggin more just for yuo just thought yuo hsould know, and... yeah thats all ive got right now :)

have a great week :)